SEEDS Journal: KJ Holmes Workshop 7/14

rain
green, black
heavy bones on moist floor
I am rich, dark chocolate, coffee flow
sing in veins of deep red oxygen
water is outside
today I drank coffee,
dark chocolate crepe
solid apple
less hair,
heavy heart
patience.

Morning:
I enjoyed the heavy rain. Last night I cut my hair, setting free the excess and cutting off the dreadlocks tightly bound over the past year, containers of the year's tension. More talk today about transitional spaces. We can move in and not just through. A new concept to me: our patterns of yielding/pushing help us to establish ourselves and build a place to reach out from. There is a space between fight and flight. We improvised on KJ's instructions about yielding and pushing. I made the discovery that I can leave finger prints on my own skin. Simple, yet new to me. We do affect ourselves most. KJ prompted thought about our bodies as content vs a container. Organs are content, bones a container. Blood contributes to sense of gravity, nerves and spinal fluid our sense of levity. We also talked about social relationships, the meeting of two beings. Meetings are not on a map. We may have a plan, but the real content of life isn't on the map. And this is what changes your life.

Water:
Water changes density and form through the body's passageways. It is inhaled and exhaled, drank and excreted. Water becomes part of blood and other fluids. And funny enough, water is an inorganic molecule, yet we are made of it, and need so much! We talked about how elements compose a whole. We can look at separate parts of something to see it as a whole. I made a drawing representing this, representing a lifespan. Each stroke of a colored pencil makes many tiny dots. These are separate elements of a lifetime. We start of with a narrow area of dots, not many elements to influence us or keep track of. As we age, more dots appear. A darkly shaded area is a time of so many dots (elements) that life feels dense and overwhelming, difficult to walk through as we try to manage too much.



Afternoon:
Watched my rain video footage recorded on morning of 7/10. It's 27min 18 sec long. Watching full screen makes me shake. I tried to meditate on it for it's full duration. 3:33 into it I'm bored. Noticing details is valuable though. So much activity in a puddle. Resources to work with:
time
rhthym
monotony
clear, white, grey
intersection of people and water (sounds of people in kitchen are in background. was recorded in doorway)
When are you nourished vs dry
bounce, fall, ripple, splash
adhesive and cohesive

Facts: 70% of earth is H2O, 97% is undrinkable water, 2% of all H2O is frozen in polar ice caps, leaving 1% for human use. .5% of that is not polluted. (book)

My first rain score
theme:      human water use
intention:  to acknowledge the movement of modern water use, using movement and rain footage and document this action
time:         four minutes
people:     me
place:       studio at Earthdance
activities: drink, swallow, pour, spill, shiver
resources: rainwater collected in a bottle outside my tent, thirst, water facts, spilling my cup of water today down the stairs, coming in from the rain, change in temperature

A narrative      
Come inside from rain, wipe wet shoes, take off shoes. Remove hood, take off jacket. Walk, shiver. Turn on sink, fill cup, drink. Turn on hot shower, wash, dry. Boil water in teapot. Boil water for noodles. Wash clothes, dry. Water plant, brush teeth, pee, wash hands. Get in bed, read book, cry. Drink water, sleep.